New year has already begun and I had no resolutions. Infact I didnt do any resolution this year.
Feeling my current mental state of unpleseantness (unhappiness or sadness or anything else cant describe it) I think it is now time to delebrately take efforts to move on from th heart break I had a very long ago now. Yes I accept that I havent been able to move on, mostly not because of time, but lack of proper mental discipline about handling it.
I did some mistakes unconsciously, may be because it satisfied my ego. Mistake unconsciously lying to myself that she might come back, she will realize and all sorts of stuff. It kept my hopes and hence I am still stuck.
I had a phone call with my best friends, they listened. Now I have finally decided to leave my past behind and accept that she is gone permanently. Now, I let go her with my best wishes and wish her a happy life.
I am starting to execute a systematic plan for a period, which includes some daliy excercise/activities for me to do.
Coping with heartbreak is a step towards me feeling better again. It may be the only thing or maybe one of the many things, which I cant tell now. But I am sure it is biggest contributer for me feeling bad.
This has to be done, this is important and necessary for I cant live my life this way. Time here is precious to be spent on grieving. I have to change, otherwise my future will pay for this.
Consider this to as the new years resolution.
I accept how it is, what it is. I let her go.